IUI #2

Well, IUI #2 is behind me. It didn't hurt as much as the first one. It's really difficult to be positive about this cycle when we don't know why we're not getting pregnant and our other cycles haven't worked. It seems that I produce good sized follicles and hopefully that bodes well for this cycle and future ones.

If this cycle doesn't work we will be doing one more and then have to face the question of injectibles vs. IVF. Injectibles run the risk of multiples (more than just twins) and have a lower success rate than IVF. But IVF is much more expensive and more painful and time consuming. I guess we'll discuss this with the Doc if this cycle doesn't work.

I'm just so sick of not being pregnant. I keep getting more discouraged every time I see someone pregnant or see a baby. I feel like I'll never get pregnant, I'm afraid that nothing will work.

I also found out that my husband's cousin and his wife have been having difficulty too. They have been trying for almost as long as we have. I can't help looking at all of the people who shouldn't have children that procreate with no problem at all, so many of these people have children left and right and then don't take care of those children. Then people like us who have jobs, who are well educated, who have homes with good school districts, who have close knit and loving families, who are sober and don't use drugs seem to have so much difficulty having children. It is so frustrating and unfair, and there's nothing that I can do about it but be upset and frustrated that I can't get pregnant.