I just ordered $1400 of drugs

I just ordered my injectible meds. I'm spotting today and I'm starting my first injects cycle this month. So, I have to get my meds and I think I start on day 3. Scary, exciting, and hopeful. I'm just so afraid that it won't work, but I'm afraid of that each cycle, it's just that if injects don't work, then the next (and final step) is IVF. DH and I have agreed that we won't start that until I'm at least half done with my CRNA program. So, hopefully this will work. I just hope that our going out of town isn't a problem. We are leaving for Pittsburgh Thursday night and will be there until Monday, so hopefully they won't be wanting to do any ultrasounds during my little Easter Vacation. I suppose I could do some lab tests there, I assume that LabOne is in Pgh too, but the ultrasounds would be tougher. Today I'm preparing for our little road trip (it's only 4.5 hours by car) to visit our family. We will be staying with DH's sister and my two nieces. I've been waiting for awhile for this trip. We're bringing DH's other sister her present for doing our taxes (she's an accountant), we got her an enormous stainless steel grill, but the trick will be loading it into our SUV ourselves. I think she'll love it, she always cooks for the family, and her grill is rusting away, so it's perfect for her. I now have to go shopping for a birthday present for my niece and my nephew. I've got alot to do today!

I still can't believe that I'm going to school in September. I can't believe that I'm going to be a nurse anesthetist, and that I'll get to intubate people and keep them safe and alive during surgery etc. I still can't believe the stuff I do right now as a nurse in the ICU. When I think about all the stuff I manage right now, I'm amazed, I can't imagine that I'm about to get more responsibility and more autonomy. It's scary working in the ICU and managing IV infustions of sedation and vasopressors, and teaching the families about what is going on with their family members, I'll be doing more soon, and there will be even less room for mistakes! Scary. I had a dream about it last night, so it's getting more real as school is getting closer. Hopefully I'll do well.