Valentine's Day Blues

Well, Valentine's day came and went. My big day consisted of going to get my hair cut and highlighted, which was fun, getting gas, and dropping off the dry cleaning. I was upbeat (despite the fact my DH was in California on a business trip). I came home expecting to see flowers perched on my front step, and none were there. I waited the rest of the day, and still now flowers!!! Now, DH is usually really good about sending flowers, and he was so thoughtful and took me out to the Ballet last weekend since he would be gone for Valentine's day, and that was my Valentine's day present. Now, I didn't get flowers then, nor did I get any yesterday. If he were here, he would have come home with flowers, so I thought that since he was away that he would have some sent to the house!! But no!! So, I was talking to him on the phone yesterday evening and he was getting ready to go out to dinner with one of our friends in SF (an older lady from our church, she's widowed and didn't have any children, so she's lonely), and I insisted on helping him choose some flowers for her (so that he didn't get any cheap or ugly ones). I wanted him to buy orchids, since those were the flowers she carried at her wedding (and so did I). But Cost Co didn't have any orchids (I think they must have been bought out earlier that day, Cost Co always has orchids), so we were discussing other options, and I mentioned that I was going to go to Cost Co here and buy myself some orchids. He asked why, and I said that I didn't get any flowers today, he reminded me of the ballet, and I said that I still haden't gotten any flowers, so I was going to buy my own.

I'm sure it's the Clomid that is making me overly sensitive and easily lonely and depressed. However, DH is usually sooooooo thoughtful and sensitive to my feelings about his business trips. It WAS thoughtful to go to the ballet last week, and he DID send me an e-card, but I still thought he would have sent me flowers so that I had something special when he was so far away. I bought a card and sent it to his hotel so that he would get it when he checked in. (I hope it made it there). I don't know if I'll actually go out and get the flowers for myself, but maybe. I guess it depends on how much I want to avoid leaving the house. It's freezing here!!!

Well, just a little irksome thing, I'll get over it. As far as TTC, today was my last dose of Clomid. I get the u/s Monday, and hopefully an IUI on Thursday. We'll just see if my uncooperative body complies with the plans. We can only hope that it will.