TWW

Well, I'm waiting for the day I can test!! I have to make it till Wednesday. This is the last Clomid cycle, and I really really really hope it works. I'm just so scared it won't, and I'll be disappointed again. I only had one follicle at the ultrasound, and I was disappointed since I think that lowers the chances of success.

We just got back from a wonderful weekend with my parents and our friends. We went down to Nashville for my parent's annual party which was a success. Our friends flew down to Nashville to attend. We had a wonderful weekend, and had lots of fun showing them around Nashville. I got to wear the new cocktail dress DH bought me for Christmas, and it looked great. Our little puppy had a great time begging for food all night. He got plenty of cheese and goodies that he shouldn't have, but he was happy. He alternated between wanting to be held and snuggled because of all the people and sitting in front of the tables with food trying to look pathetic so people would feed him.

We do have a new development, DH has just been offered a position in Houston, Texas. This is a big leap since DH would be leaving the Gvt and working in private industry for the first time. I would be turning down my acceptance to Anesthesia School and applying to two other programs. I would then be given an additional year to try and have a baby. If we stay here, and I don't get pregnant soon, we'll have to stop trying for a year while I'm in school and then try towards the middle of my second year of school. Since we've had so much trouble (and I'm not getting any younger) it's so scary to take even a month off, I can't imagine stopping for a whole year!! We're going out to Houston this month to see what we think. We've been looking at houses online, and we'd be able to get a bigger house, like 2000 sq feet bigger than our house. Everything IS bigger in Texas!! I'm kind of excited (especially about being able to have one more year before school) about Houston, I look so forward to NO MORE SNOW!! I hate the cold, and it's not cold there, ever! It gets really hot and humid there, but I'd much rather deal with four months of heat misery than four months of cold misery. I'm just worried about moving further away again from our family and our friends we've made here. I guess it will all work out.

It's Lent now, so I'm eating tons of fish and tofu. We're Serbian Orthodox, so we give up all meat and meat products (milk, eggs, etc) for Lent. It's difficult, but made better by all the vegan products on the market. I just had a vegan hot dog for lunch. We have tofu icecream, veggie burgers, vegan sausage, etc. Plus we eat tons of sushi and pad thai with shrimp.

I felt like such a terrible person this weekend. Our friends came to visit, and I know that she's been trying to convince him to have a baby, and he's been reluctant Well, we went out to the bar and she wasn't drinking all weekend, which is not normal for her, I mean, not even a single glass of wine. So, I figured that she must be pregnant! I was so upset, I felt awful that I was upset, which made it even worse. I mean, we had been married two years before they even met, we were in their wedding, and they're pregnant!! It's just so completely unfair, and I couldn't stomach yet another friend of ours announcing their pregnancy. Well, it turns out she wasn't pregnant, she had just had wayyyy too much to drink the weekend before and wasn't feeling like having anything alcoholic, especially since this was the first time she had met my parents and wanted to make a good impression. She had just found out that she wasn't pregnant. However, that means that they're trying, so it's only a matter of time before I have to suck it up and smile and congratulate them. I just hope I can get pregnant this cycle so that I can be more genuine in my congratulations. I feel like such a bad person, but I'd like to get pregnant before somebody!!!